Always on...

I feel like I am constantly on and never truly relaxed, not even when I'm sleeping. I'm constantly going but what do I have to show for it? I have a beautiful family and am blessed beyond measure spiritually and emotionally. I have my physical health for the most part, but there are parts of my physical and mental health that are being hit hard daily. I am not complaining about anything but taking the time to recognize I am human, and I'm allowed to not always be in the best place.

I know God has me and my family. He has brought us through so much, so I am going to continue to have faith. I'm not perfect and my faith wavers not because of God but because I put so much on myself, and I try to do it alone. I just don't do this in my spiritual relationship with God. I do this with my partner and my "village." Have you ever felt weak because you had to ask for help? I have felt this way plenty of times, and it has caused so much unnecessary stress and anxiety in my life. There is strength in asking for help, and I'm still learning that.

I am working on self-care and learning it's ok to make time for me. I used to feel guilty for just needing a moment to sit in complete silence. Now it has become routine for me to sit my car with my music on blast in front of my house doing nothing for about 15 minutes. I use this time to pray, unwind, and sometimes do nothing at all.

There is so much going on. I know I am not the only one feel this. What do you do when you take a moment to yourself? How do you build yourself up?

-Faithfully Waiting.. Boss Lady

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